Displeasure and a special kind of love.

- I'm getting married! I'm getting married! I'm getting married! Charlotte said upset and crying.

- What? With who? Did Mr. Borlen already talked to you? Her brother asked surprised.

- What?! What are you talking about? I told you to re... Mr. Borlen wants to talk to you? She asked surprised.

- Well, men in the coffee have been talking about he has some kind of special interest in you. I've seen the way he looks at you when you talk to him, even if it's the simplest matter in the world, he seems so curious about your words. He said with bored expression while Tette cleaned her few anger tears.

- Charles! The things I talk about are important and interesting! It's just normal he paying me such attention! Tette became infuriated again.

- Tette, honestly, talking to a man about a breeding center of "bunnies" because your old rabbit died with some strange illness isn't as interesting as you may believe. 

- Anyways! I am getting married to whoever! He is welcome in this house! She said.

- What in heaven's name, Charlotte!? What have you heard about Malkovich now? Did you listen he has been talking to girls in the near town? Have you thought he got engaged again? Is he asking to some family to talk with their daughter? What in the world is going on now? I am so tired to wait for this man to do or not to do in order for you to react! And I never know what to expect from your reactions! Last time you went to his mother town and talked to his mother about a wedding that has been cancelled long time ago! I need you to control yourself! Charles said, now irritated because he knew his sister well and she wasn't really open for a new engagement, she was just letting her anger go with careless words throw in the air, she was clearly displeased.

- I just did because he told me we were going to talk to her last summer but didn't get to do it! You know nothing about us! It is a special kind of love... She said sadly now.

- And yours is a special kind of insanity? He asked still annoyed but more calm, concious about how hard talking about Hayes was for her even after so long, especially after people started talking about some girl talking frequently with him lately.

She just looked at him badly and left the living room. 

- Tette, wait. Charles said but Tette was already running upstairs and locked herself in her room.

- For God's sake, until when? She's a child. He said tired.

She knew her actions weren't normal, she more than anyone knew that well, she herself was ashamed of not being able to control her emotions, not being able to control her actions properly, not even her thoughts, she was tired of her dreams with him even now, she was tired of asking about him in every meeting, she was done with herself. She wished she can stop herself because all this was ruining her, taking away all her youth and driving her closer and closer to "insanity". 

 She knew even the same Hayes was annoyed by her constant persuit... it was just hard for her to admit the same man once told her he was going to make her his wife and will treat her the way she deserves to be treated, was the same man today was telling people she has lost her mind since the engagement got broken. She couldn't admit such level of insensitivity in the man she once loved to death... 

She was sure about there were still some pieces of that beautiful love they once seemed to share, but it was obvious that love was fading away little by little even if against her own will, all his words, attitudes and actions were finally killing that irrational love she had for him... though was it really fading away? or was that just something she was trying hard to believe in order to stop looking for him? Even that was deeply painful for Tette, she didn't feel she was ready to let him go, to let that love go even if he himself went away long time ago, with her heart in his bag.