What?

She was trying to go down the streets all drunk and dopey, with all her make up undone cause of her tears, she could barely walk... she was almost crawling in fact, she was so mad with everybody, but especially with herself, it was the first time she tasted alcohol and it was horrible certainly yet she wanted to try, she wanted to forget everything for a little as everybody told her alcohol will do. The past day was probably the worst of her whole life.

[Two days before]

The phone rings while she was in the break of the practice for her show, she looked at the locked screen and took the call.

- Hi! She said and big smiled appear on her face.

- Hey... He replied with a turned off voice. She knew there was something wrong, she knew it since a while ago but she wasn't brave enough to talk about it, she just wanted to let it be, she was waiting it'll be just a matter of time til things get back to normal, but things were turning in a way no one imagine, at least not her.

- How... how are you? She said in a normal tone of voice trying to look calm so he won't feel pity for her.

- I'm doing well. Jey there's something I need to talk with you about.

- Sure, no problem. Is there any cool surprise for me? She said joking but he didn't laugh.

- Tomorrow at the coffee next to your house at eleven a.m. Is it okay for you?

- Yeah. She said now acting as cold as him.

- Okay. Bye then.

- Goodbye Arvad.

She couldn't even slept that night, she was worried to death... and even when she told herself over and over again it was probably a simple joke of him, she was already crying wishing everything'll be fine.

[Next day in the morning, at the coffee]

- What? She said aloud with a shaken face. She was wearing a black and white outfit, black jean, white t shirt and black jacket and white converses.

- Yeah, I'm leaving. My father just told me he got a job for me in this company so I'll take this chance. He answered calmly. He was wearing an immaculate suit, grey pants and waiscoat, and black shirt and classical mocassins.

- Well, that's pretty cool yet I'm not asking about the job but about you and I talking no more. What the heck are you talking about? She asked angrily.

- I need you to calm down.

- I am calm, can you see my freaking face? I'm perfectly calm, a not calm me would slapping you to death so you may come back to your senses. She said staring at him. And he laughed a little bit.

- It's over, Jey. He announced looking at his almost empty cup of tea with milk.

- What's over exactly Ar? She asked smiling spitefully now.

- Everything. I mean, you and I.

- You and I? She asked with a surprise face.

- Yeah. He said this time a bit ashamed starting to think he was actually saying nonsense since she wasn't understanding him.

- There's nothing, before, now or later. And will never be. She said cutting the air with her words and breathing hardly.

- Right. He concluded ashamed but serious and cutting.

- I guess we're done here and you have nothing else to say. I'm leaving first. She said and left the place after thraw him a hard look.

She was walking back to her house but then she thought about all the questions her mom will do and how mad her father will get after seeing her crying over him so she kept on walking without a direction til she found that bar where she lost herself. It was fine anyways, to crawl and vomit was fine, her head was so heavy and she was feeling she'll die at any moment, her whole body was in such a terrible state that her heartache was nothing but a bittersweet mouthful...

She had no idea about how she reached home, the last she remembered was getting into a taxi and giving him her address before she continue vomiting out of the window; thank God she did that at least.

- So is everything clear now?

- It is.

- Did you seriously get I meant? Said a man with a strong face looking her in a hard way.

- Yes, sir. 

- Perfect. Her father said and left the house.

- You know he's doing all these just because he loves you... His mom said looking at her worrily.

- For the first time, I know mom, I really know. She replied and smiled.

The times goes on and the years passed away, she met someone who helped her to build up everything the other person destroyed; thanks to her family and her fiancee she was a new person and she was ready to give the next step, marry him and have a family, all on her own.

They were lay down on the grass looking at the stars that fantastic night and he asked her:

- Do you really want this?

- Yes.

- I hope so. And she smiled, why does he doubt so much? Maybe because he could never forget how hard it was for her to stand up again and he could never imagine he would get it.

Two months later before the wedding Arvad came back... after three years without seeing each other he just appeared up again knocking her door like if nothing has happened, like if nothing has changed.

- Hey girl. He said with a half smile when she opened the door, he was holding something in his arms...