The best one.

And now that everything has changed
I'll like to say a few things I wasn't brave enough to say
I want you to know I really believed in us
In that level of friendship where no one could push us apart
I guess I expected way too much
And I should've known the future wasn't for us both.
Now that the days have come back to what they were without you
And there are no more tears even when I still miss you
Let me tell you that the pain isn't as unbearable as before
I've taught myself to face days without you and it hurts 

But I’m stronger and it hurts but it doesn't break me down anymore
I know we're not foes or something now
Yet I also know we are best friends no more
Oh wait, did I ever get that from you?
Sincerely I know things have been falling down since a while ago
But I really didn’t want to give up
And even when it took my all
My strength and my whole power to keep us on
I thought I could get it and that’s why I tried so hard
But you can’t hold by yourself something that suppose to be of both
You taught me that, do you remember so?
It was you the one who said
“someone can't get it if the other person doesn't want”
Well I got it now, maybe a bit late, but I got to know
That I was trying to keep us on the road
when you've already taken another car
I still love to see you smile and so
With or without me, I swear you deserve all the best so hop 

And don’t worry I’m not sad anymore, just learning to live alone
Its life, you remember? Yeah its life and I can
I can get over this as I’ve done it so many times before
It’s neither the first one nor the last one for sure
I just don’t know how it comes I still can’t get use
And each new hit hurts as much as the first one
The only good is that my best I’ve done I’m sure
There's no regrets to cry over, just memories that can cut
You have no idea about how thankful I am with you even now
All the happiness you brought to my life can’t be repay, not at all
I give you thanks though, because I have nothing more
And I'll keep you in my prayers so you can be safe and don’t give up
We’re in still in touch, you know
So if you think you need me you know where to find me, right?
Don’t get mad over simple words I say sometimes anymore
Sometimes my madness or my sadness takes control
But sincerely, from the bottom of my heart…
All I want to say is Thanks & I Love You So Much
Because, for me you’re still the best one… yeah, even through all.

Madelaine Bustamante

Vanilla & chocolate ice cream.

- When are you leaving? He asked

- The day after tomorrow. She answered like whispering, because she didn't actually want let the words out.

He just smiled, trying to hide his sadness & she believed in his smile, asking herself how things were going to be since then on... she was curious about their love story continuing or just ending there. She was okay with any of his decisions still she really wanted to go ahead.

- Will you miss me? She said and laughed. Of course you won't. You haven't done til now, why will you do it from now on? She said and look to the floor smiling.

- I will. He stood up and started walking. She followed him.

- Have you ever missed me? 

- Yes. I could not stop thinking about you when we first met. Do you remember? I even told you. He said while looking to the river.

- Yes, I remember. But I wasn't sure about if it was true... after all it didn't last longer. 

- Because things don't work in that way & I don't know if I am able to handle things like that. He said looking at her this time.

She was pretty nervous, she was ready for hard words but she just couldn't help it. She remembered the last week and all the happiness her heart housed. Some tears threatened with fall down but she just touched her cheeks with her hands covered by globes and smiled trying to hide them.

He was expecting to see if she cries or draw a sad face but she was okay so he thought she didn't really care.

- Let's go for an ice cream. She asked him and he agreed.

- So... which one do you want? Oh don't tell me, vanilla with pieces of cookies. He smiled.

- And you want chocolate.

- Your memory has improved loads young boy. She said smiling as well. I guess you know why we're eating ice creams at the moment. 

- Sure, because you like sweets. He replied.

- No. Well I like them, but that's not the main reason at the moment. They both laughed.

- Then what's the reason? He looked at her doubting.

- Your birthday. He looked at her seriously.

- But my birthday already passed and you already gave me a gift.

- Yes, but... some years ago, I told you I will give you an ice cream for your birthday when I'll see you. She smiled and a tear fell down.

- Oh... It was all he could said.

- Your eighteen birthday. She reminded him and gave him his ice cream. They kept on walking.

- My memory has improved but you still have a gold memory. He said.

- When it comes about things I care, yeah. She answered him focused on her ice cream.

- Let me taste your ice cream. She was about to refuse but he was already doing it. 

- Hey! She said surprised.

- It was just a licked. He laughed. And she was now staring pretty serious at her ice cream. What? He asked maliciously.

- Nothing. She replied and licked immediatly her ice cream. 

- I think we had a kiss there. She coughed.

- You knew? She asked with her eyes quite open and embarrased. He laughed.

- Girl, the question is: did you know? He asked her while giving her a vain glance.

- Me? She said while blushing. Of course not! She lied and he laughed at her again.

They walked for a while in silence. Til she broke it.

- Do you remember that dream of you?

- What dream? He asked thinking about he has had many dreams along his life. She realized about how silly her question was but she continued.

- The one you had with me long time ago. It was all she said.

- Maybe. He replied. And she got mad inside thinking that wasn't an answer.

They kept on walking in silence and now it was him who broke the silence.

- Would you be okay with a relationship like that? I mean, you there and me here.

- It won't be for so long anyways. She replied.

- What do you mean?

- Whether you'll break up with me or we'll get marry after a few years, you're already in last year and you'll get a job then. She just said what she thought aloud but then she noticed how shameless her answer was but it was too late he was already laughing loads and looking at her; she was red and thinking about where to hide her face full of shame.

- You're right. He said as soon as he stopped laughing and drew a huge smile on his face.

- Am I? He looked up at him smiling and expecting.

- Yes you are lady. He replied and thought seriously about hugging her but control himself.

- I love you. She said quitely and expecting for no answer.

- I love you too. He replied and that was it. 

She was going to be loyal to him and wait for him til forever, even if that forever will mean a forever waiting for real. She was truely in love with him... since the very first time they met... since the first time she was able to hear the sweet melody of his magical voice. 

I'll like to know if you know why I like turtles so much.

Just to chat.

She was just sit down there in the park, watching the little kids playing around and trying to smile even through all. It was such a beautiful day, not too sunny, yet not dark, there was a fresh breeze as well so it was a lovely day for her, plus the beautiful smell of the trees at the park and the water as well. It was those kind of days where she was just happy staying at home reading a book, but today wasn't a really good idea to stay at home due to her mood.

And while she was a bit lost in her own thoughts he passed her by... she was so much into her thought still his imagen was something she couldn't not see... she looked down and tried hard breathing, remembering herself it was alright, they were no one for each other now and it was okay not to say hi anymore...

He passed her by, he saw her yet, he really wanted to get close to her and say hi and how she is doing, after all they were still friends, weren't they? Then...why didn't she say hi? Maybe she didn't see him he thought, she has always been in the clouds since he knows her so probably she didn't see him. He came back on his steps and stood in front of her:

- Hey!

She couldn't believe he did so, why? Just why? It was okay if he talks to her no more, she was getting used to the idea, she was learning to live with it and it was okay out of the moments when she couldn't control her own anguish. She did her best to act normal, she smiled and looked up.

- Hi.

- How have you been? He said looking at her but now putting down his briefcase and sitting next to her.

- I have been fine, thank God. What about you? How is everything going on? It has been a while since last time we talked. She said acting cool and kindly.

- I am fine. Everything is going well by now. He said.

- That's really good to know! She answered and didn't actually know what else to say... Actually she wanted to ask so many things and spend all the day long talking with him as the old times, but at the same time she didn't want... because if she did so then she'll miss him tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and so on when she was finally getting use to his absence.

He wanted to spend a nice time with her now, just to chat, he wouldn't mind if they don't talk in a while after this as before, he just wanted to keep in touch.

- So... have you seen the last movies on cinema? I just passed by the cinema and there's this amazing... He couldn't continue because she interrupted him.

- Yeah, I've seen all the movies on the cinema at the moment, you know I like movies.

- I imagined so, still I wanted to ask. Have you visited this new store of candies in the next street? It's like... He couldn't continue because she interrupted him again.

- Yeah, I went there yesterday with my little nephew, he wanted to go there so bad!

- And you went with him cause you couldn't say no to someone you love... that's so you.

- Sir, yes, sir. She said and both laughed.

- Well, is there any place you haven't gone yet and you'll like to go now? He asked realizing about he wasn't getting any good idea.

- Yes, I think I should go home now. I have many things to do and work I haven't finished yet. It was good to see you, I hope you're doing well always. 

When she said so he was surprised... she never leave before him, she never actually says goodbye, she was always wanting more time, she was always having something else to say... After all seems like things really have changed between they both.

- Oh okay, sure. I was just asking to go anywhere for a minute but I have to go to my job too, I just have half an hour free now, I don't know what I was thinking in. So it was nice to see you, hope to see you soon. Goodbye. He said and smiled. She just moved her head in an affirmative way and left.

So this is how it feels when you can't talk anymore with the ones you love, when there's nothing that can keep you together to your beloved ones, when no matter how many you both lived together now there's nothing in common to talk about... So this is what it is & this is how life mean to be... Seems a bit hard, a bit unbearable, still bearable enough not to kill you...

Don't let this mess with your head, I haven't left anyone, still I have never pressure anyone to stay by my side no matter how bad I want that... 
Show the people in your life how much you love them always, becasue they are there one day, still you don't know if they will be there the next one... 

It's Over

[Talking] 
The baby's sleeping 
Don't you dare to wake her up 
The baby's sleeping, Ben 
Would you dare to wake her up?

<<baby starts crying in the background>> 
<<the mother sighs>>

[Verse 1] 
So many time in this game 
Getting all done and smashed 
Couldn't admit that I failed 
It hurt so deep when you left 
Now it's okay? I can't tell 
So many nights crying out 
Wishing the past can come back 
Begging my heart to calm down 
Why would you tell me goodbye? 
I tried my best and you know 
It wasn't me, it was us! 
I couldn't do it so wrong 
Maybe I didn't at all!

(Chorus) 
And it's over, it's over, it's over 
I don't know if for you it's alright 
And it's over, it's over, it's over 
With you or without you I'll die, so it's fine.

[Verse 2]

The days passed by in my face 
Screaming your name once again 
I couldn't stop myself from stay 
You couldn't stop yourself from change 
I tried not to see it at all 
Pretending it's all perfect now 
Thinking old times haven't gone 
And you and I are still good 
But the sun was really too bright 
In the other side of the map 
There was just silence in us 
And so noisy if i am not 
I tried to be understandable 
You know stuff, being reasonable but...

(Chorus)

It's over, it's over, it's over 
I don't know if for you it's alright 
And it's over, it's over, it's over 
With you or without you I'll die, so it's fine.

[Talking]

It's okay, I'm leaving.

Tell the child not to cry. <<sigh>>

- Madelaine Bustamante