Meanings. 2.

- So tell me, why are you here?

- I don't know.... a friend of mine asked me to come so I did.

- And why did she asked you to come? Or is a he?

- It's a she. Well... hmmm... she did cause she said you helped her so you may help me.

- With what?

- Something.

- Okay... I will sit down here and you can start talking about it whenever you want.

Was this Maine idea of brilliance? This guy wasn't even trying to get her trust, he was just there waiting for her to do all his job... Because that's what psychologist suppose to do! To know their patient problems. After about fifteen minutes:

- Let me tell you all what you say will be keep in secret because we don't go around spreading our patient's lifes. Also let me tell you my commitment is to help you but I can do it as much as you allow me so I need you to tell me why are you here, I won't jugde you, I am not a priest and I don't know you so you don't have to worry about what you're going to tell me. He said it in a kind tone of voice.

Apparently the man was starting to work and take her seriously. Should she allow him to get into her mind? Should she tell her what's going on? How it comes he doesn't know in advance? What if he laughs of her and her silly problems? They weren't silly for her! Actually the last years she lived a nightmare cause of it and now she was at the limit of everything and couldn't hold her situation for one more week without do a crazy thing. She took a deep breath and let it go:

- I think he's such an idiot, but probably not as much as me. Certainly he is in the position he is cause I allowed it, I don't deny my responsability but at the same time I do. I mean, what else could I do? I never imagine this will be like this, in fact I never imagined this at all. I mean it. He is a... I have no words to say how much I deeply hate him still I really love him. So I'm between love and hate and don't really know how to manage it. Believe me when I say I can't live without him cause I've tried several times and I had end up just cyring him a river; but also, please believe me when I say I can't live with him because I'm always losing my nerves, worry and in such a state of anxiety that I'm scare of have a real anxiety attack. She said it all too fast, almost without breathing and with her eyes turning in crystal slowly. 

- So you're having problems with your boyfriend and that's why you're here. He said in a calm voice like if she said nothing important, nothing new, nothing special after have giving her about five minutes to recuperate.

- No. She answered now mad cause of his attitude.

- No? Is he your husband then? I'm sorry mistress. 

- Oh no! For God's sake no! She claimed and started laughing. Didn't Maine say psychologist were intelligent? That girl was pretty lost or way too in love with this guy.

- What is so funny then? He asked with a pinch of curiosity now.

- Nothing.

- I need you to be more open.

- And I need to go now, I think it's enough for now and maybe next time I will tell you more, but right now I can not. Good bye sir. She said and left the room. She paid her bill and left that building finally, she felt free, no more pressure til he came back to her mind, he and all the problems that with him come to her.